About This Blog and the Writer

About the Blog:

Pick a setting and I can guarantee you there’s a part of yourself that isn’t welcome there (or at least doesn’t feel welcome there).  Church and your sexual self, the DMV and your creative self, a kegger and your religious self…  I’m not advocating for throwing all social norms to the wind and engaging in a purely primal or anarchistic style of human relationship.  I’m just wondering why there are so many places where we have to disengage from one part of our identity or another in order to fit in?  Yes, it is important to have social boundaries for certain behaviors in certain settings.  But all too often, we seem to do a particularly thorough job of dis-integrating ourselves.

This blog is an attempt at creating a venue where I can more fully express myself, all parts of me, free of judgment or obligation.  It  is my hope that with a good outlet I can feel a little less crazy, a little less atrophied and have a fuller cup from which to pour out myself and my energy.

This blog is about living life as a whole person, rather than as a person who must discard parts of who I am in order to exercise any other given part.  It’s about living an integrated life (def: “combining or coordinating separate elements so as to provide a harmonious, interrelated whole”)  so I don’t become a dis-integrated person.

My only caveat is that, of course, who I am is not perfect.  So if any stumble across these musings, I hope you can offer some grace and mercy to an imperfect person who just needs an honest outlet.

About Me:

After a challenging but fulfilling decade pursuing a masters degree and a career I, gratefully but with some sense of identity lost, made the  decision to become a stay-at-home mom.   I don’t regret the decision.

I’m not sure if it’s because I’m a wife and stay-at-home mom or if it’s a phenomenon common to modern women in general, but I find that  I have very few outlets in my life that allow me to be all of who I am at once:  a mother, an intellect, a person of faith, a wife, a creative being, a sexual person and a concerned citizen/steward of this planet.  In some settings I can be a number of these things and  in other settings I feel judged or stifled or simply too exhausted to express many, or even just one, parts of myself well.

Without getting exercised or nourished, certain parts of who I am shrivel up and I end up feeling like less of a woman, less of a person. Other times, I start to feel like a multiple-headed horse, heads butting against each other and straining in opposite directions as they fight to decide which “me” gets to determine the agenda for the day.

Overall, I am truly blessed to live the life that I do.  This blog may catch me at my worst sometimes, but hopefully that means the people in my life I love the most can be spared some of the drama inflicted on the world wide web.


6 responses to “About This Blog and the Writer

  1. Loved reading your blog today hun! You validated lots of things that have been stirring in my mind as well. I’m glad you decided to write and I’m excited to read more!!

  2. I really resonate to what you say here, and I trust that many people do, they just might not have found the words for it. Here’s to striving to be our authentic Selves and at the same time connecting with each other toward a more authentic sense of community—this place that defies the limits of the more concrete places we have known, but never been able to bring our entire selves.

    • I love the expression “resonate to” or “with” something. There’s nothing else that describes that sense of reverberation and brightness when two musical notes come together harmoniously or closely. Both somehow become more alive and beautiful. Thank you for coming by! It’s a privilege to cause resonance and a joy to experience it.

  3. Thank you for the amazing sweet comments you left me today – I’m so glad someone is listening and it was just the boost I needed.

    Have a wonderful weekend!


  4. Well done. You are writing in a rare style and the candor is refreshing. Always a pleasure to come across good writing. Thanks for putting it out there and keep it up.

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